My Body-His - Blakely Bennett

MY BODY-HIS is a book that's been sitting on my kindle for a while.  I won it as a prize last year, and heard rave reviews from a lot of my GR friends, but for some reason, I kept putting off reading it.  Well, I've now read it and I find myself in a dilemma because this one is so hard to rate and review.


It's hard to rate and review this one because technically, the book was excellent.  Great writing, great character development, great world building, and all that stuff.  That really kept me connected to the book when there many times that I wanted to stop reading. I can not fault this writers ability to write a book.  


**I have to add a disclaimer that the author puts at the bottom of her description box.  She says that this is not a romance, it's a erotic suspense novel.  I'm glad that's there.  I don't know if it was always there, but I'm glad it's there now.  I actually think that this should be the first sentence of the description, but I digress.**


But, this is where the hard part comes in.  I was physically ill from this book.  My stomach was in knots as I read this train wreck of a relationship that was supposed to be a BDSM Dom/sub relationship.  IT WAS NOT.  I repeat, IT WAS NOT a BDSM Dom/sub relationship.  At least, not in the way that any reputable practitioner goes about handling the relationship.


Anyone a part of the lifestyle, and really part of the lifestyle, will say to you SAFE.SANE.CONSENSUAL.  They will ram it down your throats.  They will warn you of predators who will take advantage of unsuspecting, naive newbies who don't know what to look out for.  And I swear, I think that they had Luke in mind when they were talking about this.


BDSM is about communication.  And that's where this story utterly failed for me.  Luke brought Jane into this relationship without an ability to get the whole story.  And how can you consent when you don't have all the information.  And, he was such an ass when she asked any questions.  UGH, he drove me absolutely nuts when he shot her down for asking him ANYTHING at all.


And Jane, man, she was so weak.  So afraid to lose out on her last chance of love.  She couldn't see that Luke was nothing but a glorified abuser.  Because, honestly that what he was.


So, as I finish reading this, I'm thinking to myself, "how do I rate/review this?".  The story definitely drew me in, but the BDSM aspects threw me for a loop.  Then I thought, maybe this is what the author intended.  Maybe she wanted us to see how horrible this relationship was.  Maybe there something more in store for Jane.  This is a trilogy after all.


When it's all said and done, I have NO idea what to do or how to rate MY BODY-HIS.  I think from the writing and the technical aspects, it's 5 star.  But the emotional part of it, I'd give a 1.5 star for how turned off I was.   But then, don't I need to give it a higher rating because it did draw such  strong reaction out of me?  That's got to be saying something, right?


But then here is the rub, remember that disclaimer that I mentioned the author gave.  I really believe that because she did that, she deserves the benefit of the doubt that she knew what she was doing so I'm giving this 4 STARS because of the huge emotion that the author was able to draw out of me, and the amazing ability she has a writer.


I will be continuing with this trilogy because I've been told that I'll be happy with the way it progresses.  So, we'll see how I feel after book 2.